a month away

       Does it really feel different? I'm turning 40...a month away.

       Most people say: life begins at 40. I don't think so. I don't agree. From as long as I can remember, life starts every single day.We sleep and every morning is a new life, a new beginning...life anew!

      I hope that a month away I will start feeling new...whether I'm turning 40 or not. if it would be my 50th, I would still feel the same way. Perhaps each year, I should just pray that I become more mature and more open about everything that can happen.

      I wish to show that I have grown old, that I have embraced the life I have made and the life I have chosen. Most of all, that I have thanked GOD and live the life of thanksgiving. I wish that as I turn a year older, I have given more to others. 

      I hope that I have become a good example to others. I hope that I speak and do all the things that I have read and have made my faith deeper. I hope I am sharing something good about GOD and life itself to others. 

un grande regalo per noi

I know how BLESSED we are! We get all the special treatment from God, whether we pray to him or not. That's how wonderful he is to us, a great father with his unconditional LOVE for believers and non believers alike.

I try to wake up each morning thinking about HIS gift to me... my LIFE! The simplest thought of me breathing, reading, writing and interacting with all the people around me... that's a great gift of life.

These days, for the last 9 weeks and 5 days; I wake up reminded that HE gave me another gift... another life that's not mine to keep! I have a new life living and depending on me, but he isn't for me alone.

My SON would grow with me and grow old and I always have to be there for him. I go where he goes, I help him when he needs it and when he doesn't need it. I will let him GROW and GO, even if it would mean my heart broken, even if it would cost my happiness, and even if it would mean a great sacrifice.

I began to deeply understand God's love for us his children. I wake up each day thinking of my baby's needs first than my own... I have learned about love, hence with this great LOVE comes much greater SACRIFICE!

The miracle of life... especially if it's the life of your own child. Thank GOD for the gift of children... the children who are the life of theirs mothers and fathers 💙💛💜

Love ... as much as we could

Love conquers all!

I often wonder how much love I could give when I first had a boyfriend. It was an interesting experience and it made me do things I didn't know I could. I wrote poems for him, I drew pictures, I drew a portrait using just pencil, I wrote love letters that were like novels then. I was a teenager!

What is long then is shorter now, what is older then is much much older now, who is smart then isn't as smart as he or she is now. Things change, our perspective and perception about the experiences we have such as LOVE; grows, changes, and fades as well. But love conquers all. I was broken hearted with that first love!

And that made me try to work overseas... With that I saw my first fall foliage, my first snow, my first spring experience and I have had been travelling since then either it is about work or travelling itself.

Thanks to love! I have conquered another world. I have seen different cultures and have seen how the faith of people can change their outlook in life. I have met my two best friends because of LOVE.

One of my best friends is still in China and another one is stationed in Japan. Love conquers friendships, faith, and belief in the beauty of life! And when I found and met my second love... I grabbed it!

I hope to keep him there for always! He helped me make my dream of becoming a mother come true. And with him I found my 3rd love. We call him "Anakino"!

I don't know if it's right to count my love and how many times this love made me conquer my fears, my bitterness, my sorrows and my pains. I would like to think of my mother as my first love.

My mother is the first LOVE I have and with that I would say I will not count the love I have, I should just keep on loving.

And now that I'm a mother myself and a wife to my husband, I would like to conquer all that is to come ahead of us... Whether they will be tough or easy to deal with, I will not be afraid or worried...

Our force is stronger now, there's the 3 of us now and we can conquer anything and everything because we are all in LOVE.

Love does conquer all!

my new life flying by

two months...

have never felt this way
have never been this happy
have never been that sad
have never been this exhausted
have never been so delighted
have never been this gloomy
have never been this sleepless and restless
have never been this excited and proud
have never been enlightened this way
have never felt so blessed...

I have never been and would never be... if I
didn't become a mother!

It was just two months... but the emotions that 
went with it, the strength and energy inspite of the 
weakening process I have been through, the joys and worries I now think of, the health concerns I am 
now more aware of, the kind of love I am giving and feeling...

My life will never be the same again
and it's all for the best! I'm so fulfilled!

I love my mother so much more now,
as I, myself as an innocent mother, am
learning the ropes of life and parenthood...
every single minute with my bundle of joy.
It's 39/7 job not a 24/7 :-)
 
a gift of life indeed!