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Monday, 31 March 2014

Those Mornings that Count

Stare at the vast emptiness
Smile and be grateful, notice the multitude of colors that your eyes can behold.

Pause and be still, listen to the thumping of your restless soul,
feel the distinct noise of your joyful heart. Do you hear it? Scarred? Scared? Or simply exhausted? 

Clasp your hands, 
Scream as you whisper, shed your tears, laugh inside out, rejoice and speak out!

Your life is extra ordinary.
You're not alone 
It is when your EYES are closed that YOU see HIM shine brighter.
Be still!
Tumingala ka sa kalawakan...
Magpasalamat ka, may kulay ang lahat!

Tumigil ka makiramdam...
Makinig sa pintig ng iyong pusong abala!

Pagdaupin mo ang iyong mga palad...
Bumulong ka, magpalahaw, ngumiti ka!

Kay ganda ng iyong buhay,
Pinagpala ka!
Hindi ka nag-iisa
Pag ipinikit mo ang iyong mga mata, mas makikita mo SIYA!

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Friday, 28 March 2014

A Church of Different Colors

Where is your special space every sunday?

I went to mass last Sunday with my husband and son. It's the same church where my son's Ninong and Ninang (godparents) go every Sunday. The 11 AM mass is the mass for the community and fortunately, the priest is a foreigner like me. I can't tell where he is from but by the color of the skin I was guessing he is an African.

There were many children. More, because they are having  classes in preparation for their first communion come Easter time. The teacher assisting them is a Carmelite nun, of course with the assistance of the African priest.

A baptism we attended in Legnano, Chiessa di San Magno.
It was a great experience, thus, I am blogging about it. It became greater and better when the celebrant started delivering his homily. I tried to listen with my eyes closed. I heard the priest loud and clear maybe because I'm trying to learn the language better.  I couldn't even tell if he is a foreign or a local priest. But with some mistakes he had in grammar and having corrected himself so fast; I told myself this priest is for real. If you listened to the Pope we have now, and to the last pope we had; you would understand what I mean.
Our bible, I also read it for language learning.
     He is younger than me and he has really prepared a written homily. When I opened my eyes and listened deeply, I realized he memorized the text too. It was a very personal and substantial homily, yet his message was universal. The locals are smiling and some are giggling. I saw some even nodding their heads. I was seated at the back in between 2 grandmothers. I am always delighted and enlightened to hear priests from poor places like mine : Africa, India, China or Philippines.
A church in Tagaytay Philippines (pink sisters)

The Sacre Cuore of France in LEGOland Windsor
     He was called Fr. Herman. He mentioned his grandmother who was always takin him to church every Sunday after he had his first communion. He emphasized how important it is to have that personal connection to God in a more regular basis. He said you could do it by praying your rosary daily if you can't go to mass. But it is always good to come every Sunday, he reiterated. He talked about not losing connection or not having conversation with HIM. If that happens we will lose our way.

    The gospel was about the woman and the water of life. He provided glasses of water to the first communicants after his homily and explained to them briefly how significant the water of life is to everyone.

"L'acqua di Vita" as they say it.


Luzern, Switzerland at the city center
Luzern, Switzerland, at the city center
     I enjoyed my mass again in that church called San Pietro. It was my third time there. It is not the parish where we used to belong. I want to be in that parish, it is a REAL church for me. I saw the plumber of my in laws, happily playing the guitar for the choir composed of mainly teenagers. I saw the family of one of my former students and it felt awesome when the mother approached me and asked me about my son. Her daughter was my former student in the English kindergarten class and she knows I left the school because we had to move to England. 

       The Ninong and Ninang of Nico are my husband's cousins. Their teenage daughter was one of those collecting the offering.  There is that a wonderful feeling, to be recognized that you belong. I remember some faces and I was quenched of the thirst I was experiencing prior to my entrance in that space. It is a holy place which you long for if you believe, if you listen, if you care to be there and if you share your silent hour as well.

     There was an old couple from the south and they renewed their vows of wedding that day. Fifty long years for them... I will have my fourth. The other grandma next to me whispered that she did renew her vows, too. Her 50th as well, and if the husband lived it will be their 62nd. She was seating next to her daughter whom i can guess is older than me. She was showing me her ring while telling that story. I was thinking of my Inang all the while. The other grandma next to me greeted me, "Buona Domenica Signora", on our way out. I said the same to her. "HAVE a BLESSED Sunday Madam"... if I would translate that.
Our Church wedding was officiated by an Italian and a Filipino priest. 18-9-2010

      Where I am right now, they always look at me because I look different. I am easy to spot. I am an Asian. I am a Filipino. But once I start speaking their language, they look away.  Language does wonders sometimes or should I say most of the time? Their language is the other language I could write and read and speak, though not in a very fluent way. I am still learning it for my son.

      L'acqua di Vita! Che bella giornata! Era una Domenica interessante, non dimenticera'!

Wednesday, 26 March 2014

Nakaraan... Matagal Nang Nakalipas

Sara: Ang Munting Italiana
Isang nakakatuwang experience ang pagpunta sa bahay nina Sara. Para sa akin ito ay isang uri ng break. Nakikita ko kasi ang mga malalaking lote na walang bahay, ang mga nag-gagandahang bahay na para bang sa aking panaginip ay mga bahay sa Ayala Alabang.

Isang oras lamang naman ang inuubos ko kay Sara tuwing sabado, pero para sa akin isa itong uri ng pag-uwi sa Guido Street. Isang oras ng pakikipag utuan sa isang batang, iba ang lenggwahe, iba ang itsura ng bahay, iba ang mga laruan at may kakaibang ugali.

Isang sabado kada isang linggo na punong puno ng kakaibang karanasan. Sa sabado ng umaga ko lang nakikita ang itsura ng aking kabataan. Naalala ko ang mga palaka sa palayan sa Guido noon. Ang saya saya nila kada tag-ulan. Isang uri ng musika ito noong aking kabataan. At ang bawat pagpatak ng ulan ay isang magandang ala-ala ng aking kabataan.


Maging maputik na baha man or simpleng ingay ng palaka ang kaakibat ng ulan sa aking kabataan... gustong gusto ko itong babalikan, kasi kasama ko dun ang aking Atang at Inang. Ang atang ang una kong science teacher kasi pinaliwanag nya sa akin kung bakit at paano mo huhulihin ang palakang bukid. Napaka simple ng paliwanag nya at dahil tatay ko sya, nakabaon ito sa aking kamalayan.

Pati nga ang amoy ng Atang ko, hinding hindi ko ito makakalimutan. Ang Inang ko naman ang isang halimbawa ng teacher sa laboratory classes. Sa umaga pagkatapos ng maulan na gabi, nasa poso na sya at nililinis nya sa aking harapan ang mga palakang bukid na aming nahuli nung gabi.

Ang tinding karanasan din ito. Imagine, ang iingay pa nila noong nakaraang gabi, binabalatan na sila ng Inang ko kinabukasan. Ang tindi din ng mga ala-alang ito. Walang usapan, ang aking Inang ay tahimik lang na nagtatrabaho. Nakabantay lamang ako at ako ang nagtitimba ng tubig sa poso para sa kanya.


Nasa eskwela yata o sa trabaho ang mga ate at kuya ko. Basta ang alam ko noon, palaging ako at sila lang, ang atang at inang ko ang naiiwan sa bahay.

Miss ko na ang palayan sa Guido, pero wala na yatang natirang palayan doon.

Sunday, 23 March 2014

Our CULTURE : our Food



When you visit a country and ridicule the food the locals have...
Then you shouldn't travel and go to those unimaginable places...



Food is basic to everyone, it's one of the first things you long for when you're not HOME. It connects people in the family, it connects friends, it creates a whole lot of other things we call CULTURE. 



If you would write a blog, be careful with your words... YOU are not yet a certified JOURNALIST/WRITER thus you're called a blogger.

There is a way with WORDS, you can say the extremely terrible and most offensive comments and observations without looking like you are saying it to make others feel or look inferior.





Food is for everyone... Either it was bought, shared, cooked at home, sold or given for free, or even donated to you, respect it. There is always a soul involved in having it presented on the ugliest or most expensive looking plate.



Happy Memories

Dear God,
I prayed and hoped to have a calm, relaxed, reflective child...
One who thinks silently, and moves gracefully like a ballerina, a child whom I will have fun sharing my stories with...

kukibang: this was the snail i found in a park. it became my pet for months. I painted a snail with oil paint later on.
But you gave me a husband exactly as what I was imagining my child would be. I appreciate that so much. He is the best husband for me.  Every time I watch my son and observe what he does, how he is doing it, how he tries to change the way in which he was taught to do something... I keep pondering;


Our first wedding was in the city hall (commune) it was last April 24, 2010
Will I ever have enough time to jot this down?
Will I have that quiet time to write his own progress report?
Will I be able to tick that checklist of developmental stages I have kept with me for ages?
Will I ever have time to write and collect all his fun true to life anecdotes?

And as I try to search for answers to these questions, I get bored. I become tired. I fall asleep pondering. I grasp for answers as to how can I be faster than him. 
I want to be the best buddy to my son, the cool mother at 41, the energetic caregiver friend teacher in one. That was my dream!

And inspite of all the challenges in language, culture, and my life itself as a Filipina woman... I realized I am having a great time. I am living my dream.

I realized that, every time my son would stop playing to go near me, and he gives me a big hug. He would then give me a kiss on my lips, not just one but more than two. That melts my heart. I feel to be prettier than Nicole Kidman.

Thus, my dream and prayers are right there in front of me... Moving like crazy, so quick, so fast... He moves like there is no tomorrow to explore the corners of the house where we live or the dirty corners in the garden. 

This is the best thing that ever happened to me. Thank you for answering my prayers... I'm in my dreamland right now, and I OWE this to you. My husband and I, we owe this to you!  

Grazie Mille per la opportunità di essere genitori.